Sunday, February 15, 2009

Old Journal Entry: Lets Play Pretend

Come along with me now, lets play a game of pretend! Lets pretend I never even knew you, lets pretend I'm a happy person. No scars ever marred this beautiful skin. I'm 100% totally sane and in control.

Lets make believe that things are how it should be. Lets think of things how we want them.

Who ever said the grass was green? I think it's blue. It can be blue because that's how I want it. Don't you want that too? The mind can tell you a million lies, and so long as that's what you want it's how it is. All those smiles are real, everyone has only my best interest in mind. Good intentions rule this world of mine.

Lets play in a world where everyone loves you, everyone sees you. Lets play games in our minds, games of truth and twisted lies.
Lets pretend that rose has no thorns, lets pretend we don't see the scorn. I can't see the blood on your hands, on my own. Because I simply don't want to. It's not blood, but lovely lovely happiness.

Those frowns they give, their secret smiles. Those lying eyes, I'll believe the lies. The hateful words, whispering love in my ears.

Lets pretend that I'm beautiful and they all envy me. Lets pretend I'm an angel who has some form of wings.

Lets believe that time never goes by, that love never flies away. I'll just pretend you actually did care. That I'm a happy happy fool who believes in you. At least that last line was truth.

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